~christa@TTBP



24 december 2025

szn's gr8ngs

         _
       _[_]_
        (")
    `--( : )--'
      (  :  )
jgs ""`-...-'""

i stopped enjoying christmas the winter my yaya died.
it was a slow, painful death from lung cancer.
my parents tried to soften the blow during a christmas party,
where they let me host a sleepover with my friends.
(it was not the support i wanted---
i needed to be left alone)

the holidays after, i locked myself in my room
went out to brush my teeth and go to the bathroom
but i stayed frozen in exile

it wasn't even cold.

back to index